From Me to You - An Honest Expression
Those who know me well might say I’m a sensitive soul who often gets caught up in the moment, and who sometimes cares a little too much. I’m no stranger to self-made obstacles, and I often spend a little too much time circumnavigating my thoughts like a wandering traveller seeking answers. Hence my blog - a way to cleanse myself and explore topics that resonate with me most.
Along with regular exercise and fresh, summer air, it’s a crucial component of my mental health, which, to be perfectly candid, takes a daily level of mindfulness. It’s something I’ve had to learn to accept, manage, and try to understand. For all that this pandemic has taken away, it’s granted a wealth of time for personal scrutiny.
Through the means of self-therapy - garnered through literature and online sources, I would say I’m better equipped now to understand and process my notions than I was this time last summer, and that’s a huge relief to acknowledge. Because that’s all self-betterment is, a means to understand one’s self and encourage positive change.
But the one factor that has kept me going through this most testing of times is the love of a good woman. Her name is Kasha, and without her, I don’t know where I would be. So if you’ll embrace the sentimental nature of what is to come, I would like to tell you why, curious reader.
Ultimately, it’s pretty simple. Because of how she makes me feel, about a great many things. That might sound cliched or even over-simplified to some, but for someone who struggles with self-contempt from time to time, as well as a fairly principle-led view of the world, it’s absolutely sincere. I guess you could say she steers me in the right direction when I happen to veer off course. She’s kept me safe throughout all of this, provided an ear to listen without judgement or bias. If only you knew how good that feels for a weary soul. Being a good listener takes a whole lot of patience, and it’s fair to say she has it in abundance.
It was her birthday recently. In her card, I wrote, “I hope to someday live up to the example you set.” I can’t escape the feeling that she’s too good for me, maybe I’ll always feel that way. But it pushes me to be better, always.
So this is my letter to her, written as a thank you for being there for me during this most unprecedented of times. Consider it an honest expression of one’s self, who shies away from social media and who sometimes struggles to find the words to say out loud; written for someone who truly understands.
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